The new memoir from award-winning author and director Xiaolu Guo - playful, provocative, and unique, is her deeply personal approach to the pursuit of a life of her own. When she moves away from her family, the world can seem strange and lonely. Yet, beauty can also appear. In the fall of 2019, Xiaolu traveled to New York to take up her position as a visiting professor for a year, leaving behind her child and partner in London. This encounter with American culture and people threatens her sense of identity and throws her into a crisis - of meaning, desire, obligation, and autonomy.

This is a memoir of separation - from continents, languages, and people. It is about the sense of being foreign and the urgent desire for connection. Xiaolu uses her exploration of language and her own life to create this unique text. Simultaneously a memoir, a dictionary, and an intense love letter, it expresses her fascination with Western culture and her nostalgia for Eastern landscapes, trying to describe the space between them. It is a record of an artist's search for creative freedom, which is above all an intimate narrative of her efforts to carve out a life of her own.

Pages: 352, Dimensions: 12.9x12.9cm